waking up me

in the morning

he pulls me close

he tells me

how he is the luckiest and happiest

how well i fit

how i am his baby

it is like a comforter of love

waking me

it is like the best cup of coffee

waking me

every morning

sometimes he'll wake up in the middle of the night

i know this because

he pulls me close and he whispers to me

trying not to wake me

the first time we met

he couldn't help it

that is when he began

waking me

waking my senses, my heart, my dreams

he is not the answer to my prayers

he

by waking me

is

a ray of bright that lightens my slumber

the moon that whispers yes

when i rise to seek after

all my

sleeping potential

update

i live in mexico

that is the update for now.

i think you know that already

but it was an update to myself.

live where i am

i have a tendency to want to wait till i get there

and so i am updating to me

i am there already.

live.

present.

about some stuff...

the commitment ceremony will now be august 1st. i am sending out save the dates so i can't change the date and location again. the ability to keep revising the time, local and date is just too tempting for me. maybe the 3rd/4th/5th combo is enough

my guy, he woke me up all week this week offering 100 kisses.

i am going to so cal this weekend and plan to spend the bulk of it with my kindred, my anam cara. like 100 kisses in a very different way, but my stomach gets the same excitement.

i may be doing some very iresponsible things soon.

gratitude is present.

stones

i want a blue stone
i want a white stone
i want a blue stone surrounded by white stones
yes

going nowhere again

yesterday the pain returned – the kind that sits viciously behind my eyes and stabs periodically at my brain.

it is over now. i am glad. the physical pain is gone and the emotional suffering has returned. i am sad. just sad. kinda confused, overwhelmed and still very scared.

ever chart a course and then wonder how you got to be the captain?

liar

feel like a liar

my friend david cantwell the capicorn

you're my very good friend david -
i cannot imagine walking through life without you.

the thought of you brings tears to me at this very moment as i soften into the goodness you are.

thank you for being such a good david and thank you for letting me be such a messy girl.

i am ready to step into the woman that i have wanted to be for a long time - but the whiny part of me keeps reminding me that it is hard.
i just told her to shut up and now i am going to step in faith. just today.

i am a blessed heart -
i am shaped by your kindness, love and wisdom in the most incredible way.

thank you.
truly.