Cash

money
changes
everything

oh cyndie - how could you do it? we saw each other every afternoon...i said yeah, but you know, money changes everything.

please give me some. i want change.

okay - actually i am fine and blessed and grateful.
but i'm still living in a world where i'm prone to frustration about how much $ i don't have. want more money so i can do less work and play more often. and by play i mean work on other stuff. i swear i'd probably work harder and accomplish more if i didn't have to.

funny equation.

accepting donations. may be in the form of gifts. i like pretty things.

Soften my heart...with spikes of pain

Today my heart is tender for:

Miss Sasha (seriously, miss you girl);
Mr. Everything Good aka Grandpa (wish you were here);
Little Miss Pain-in-ass-but-love-you-anyway-Katie (hope Juvie on New Year's rocked); and
Mr. Stabbed-the-man-in-the-neck-and-now-I-am-in-prison-Dad (loved the chinos on th last visit).

Tender heart – as if my heart was literally tenderized with one of those big wooden hammers with the protruding spikes.

Tender heart – a moment when I know that none of this is personal

Tender heart – ability to be soft even though suffering exists

Tender heart – wanting to love you

Tender heart – wanting to free you from your suffering

Tender heart – allowing you to have your suffering anyway

Tender heart – full of stillness

may it remain.