Monday, January 5, 2009

Soften my heart...with spikes of pain

Today my heart is tender for:

Miss Sasha (seriously, miss you girl);
Mr. Everything Good aka Grandpa (wish you were here);
Little Miss Pain-in-ass-but-love-you-anyway-Katie (hope Juvie on New Year's rocked); and
Mr. Stabbed-the-man-in-the-neck-and-now-I-am-in-prison-Dad (loved the chinos on th last visit).

Tender heart – as if my heart was literally tenderized with one of those big wooden hammers with the protruding spikes.

Tender heart – a moment when I know that none of this is personal

Tender heart – ability to be soft even though suffering exists

Tender heart – wanting to love you

Tender heart – wanting to free you from your suffering

Tender heart – allowing you to have your suffering anyway

Tender heart – full of stillness

may it remain.

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